Doreen Connors, 1
Interview with Doreen Connors
What do you consider to be your most effective type of meditation?
Random knitting while in nature; taking time to truly look at trees, birds, insects, sky... and getting lost in it. Ok, that is the simple answer... do You want the long version, too? That might get 'complicated'...because the form is always changing, in my meditation.
Let's get complicated. Is it always your knitting?
No. I feel that I have to go "back to the beginning" to explain. I had a very brief stint with formal meditation at age 16, via Transcendental Meditation. I never forgot "my" mantra. A few years ago (in 2004) I resurrected it...just for fun. This precipitated a radical turning point in my awakening experience...which led me to: Listening to Eckhart Tolle on CDs, on a daily basis, until relatively recently.
It was the TM mantra that triggered this awakening experience?
Well, connected to it!! I playfully used the mantra to meditate during this time period. I was inspired to meditate by something that a friend told me that she was doing. These meditation sessions included: lighting a candle and being near a fresh flower or plant. I felt like: "Why not?!!" It is important to understand how very lighthearted I felt about the entire process.
It was as if I was "being called" by a force within me to awaken. Primary to this experience, as I began these sessions, instead of meditating I "had to" sleep... a very drugged-like-feeling, induced napping! And during these napping "meditations"... I experienced a few lucid dreams. Dreams which contained powerful images...and apparent messages.
Over the years, if ever I found myself in a situation to meditate, I automatically "used" my mantra. I could easily get in to a deep meditative state... trance-like, I suppose. For example, I took Yoga classes briefly, at one point, and whenever we would meditate at the end of a session... I thought of the mantra.
I'm not sure I understand much about mantras. For myself, I have felt empowered when using a few words to remind me of a powerful perspective. Would it be okay for me to ask about the nature of your mantra?
I tell You, I know nothing about mantras. The whole experience, with the mantra, "I think" is because I never "believed" in it/them…though, I knew that the experiences I had, when using it, were deep, indeed!! When one is initiated in TM, one is told never to reveal the actual mantra. And one is told that one's mantra has been carefully selected specifically for oneself. In retrospect, I can see that this mystical experience (at a young age)... along with the scientific "proof" that was presented during the TM classes was an important 'experience,' for me.
Also, I participated in a group meditation, at that time, that I shall never forget! I sensed that the energy of everyone there contributed to the depth of connection I felt, and yet it would take years before I understood, so to speak, that experience. It remained in my heart. So, with all this said. And some research I did, a few years ago, about the "un-truth" of the mantra... I am willing to reveal my mantra. IMA (i-mah) I have not used it since 2004. I seems like it was a vehicle that re-hearted the body or heart-space of this peaceful state. I have never had an expectation of something I was attempting to achieve– Love-ly...when intuition is allowed to be.
I started this interview with a question about what form of meditation do you find most effective. What I get from your last response is that you have no real expectation for achievement. Would you say you are eager to routinely do anything because of how it brings you into contact with your divinity-- or a state of blissfulness?
No. Non-routinely I knit/create art pieces. And spend time sitting outside, or looking out the window. I feel the contact with this divine state most of the time in the background of all my endeavors. So...I have to say, that I "channel" the energy of bliss into my artwork.