Oldriska Balouskova, 7
Interview with Oldriska Balouskova
It wants me to meet it anew all the time– to be creative about presence. The process/unfolding can surely be delayed– and there is a part of us (sometimes called the ego) that does its best to delay it. How does it do that? By pushing against what is, by separating from it, by analyzing it, by judging it, by fearing it... To help another, you can be there as an intense presence.
So, rather than push against it, or analyzing it, or judging it, you embrace it. It is inviting and you accept the invitation. It is just as you experienced with others who felt safe to meet you when you approached them with an utterly open heart during the two months you referred to earlier in our conversation. Your "intense presence" made the space for them to set aside their fears. Would you say that this is accurate?
Do we gain courage by having the will to actually look– actually be willing to witness? To use your terms, the universe invites itself. Having been separate, it must extend the invitation through its realized self to the unrealized self, and the accepting of the invitation dissolved the one invited into the one accepting the invitation. Prior to accepting the invitation, the one invited has identified itself as separate. The unrealized must accept the invitation from itself.
How does it do this? Is it through willingness– a desire to dissolve this barrier? This is very subtle. I have an article I just wrote on meditation and frequency posted on this site. It is about the periodic checking in all of us do. I believe we progress at a rate that is line with this frequency of contact with source which is governed by our willingness to witness self.
For those that have realized self more fully there is no down time of not checking in. However, for those still wanting to progress towards this through meditation or any other means, this checking in is I believe the key. Tell me what you think of this.
Meditation and other means definitely help us to stay "tuned in". I go through periods when I feel completely guided by life (when the ego is barely there), and then I go through periods when I put more effort into bringing attention to the present moment. You say– "I believe we progress at a rate that is line with this frequency of contact with source which is governed by our willingness to witness self." Do we even progress, though?
I feel that we are already there and the only thing that changes is our level of awareness of the fact that we are already "there". Perhaps we can use the word progress if we know that we are not truly the ones doing it, and that the progress is not linear and that it is creative and playful. It is our conditioned self, which is serious, sometimes even harsh, and interested in progress.
The unconditioned self feels like love itself. You say– "those still wanting to progress towards this through meditation or any other means, this checking in is I believe the key." Yes, yet at the same time, it is the unconditioned self which is waking up and making it possible for us to become more permeable. It is important for me to remember that I am being held and carried and I don't have to work too hard.
But yes, the checking in is wonderful– and helps us breath more easily. We can try to understand this with our minds to some extent but feeling presence is truly the only way to be. If you need to clarify anything, please keep asking.