Oldriska Balouskova, 8
Interview with Oldriska Balouskova
I see what you mean about the word “progress” as it suggests effort and destination. What word is appropriate in reference to what amounts to a fog clearing? The issue is difficult to grasp with language. In your last response, first paragraph, you say– “I go through periods when I put more effort into bringing attention to the present moment”. Is it not the effort that gets in the way?
I like "fog clearing"– that expresses it far more accurately for me and thank you for bringing my attention to what I said about effort– the effort indeed gets in the way– yes, it makes us serious and impermeable and makes us forget who we truly are– you put it beautifully: With motive we are not in receptivity but instead wish to alter what needs no altering– exactly.
Checking in does not have to require effort, not at all, just a slight shift in what we put attention on. What I really meant to say is that sometimes I feel completely receptive to what is, and sometimes I remember to slightly shift my attention to return to reality– but even that remembering really happens on its own. What I said about effort in the previous message did not accurately express what I feel. Thank you for catching it. Noticing that we are out of alignment brings us naturally back to alignment.
I love your last sentence– "Noticing we are out of alignment brings us back into alignment" and you also speak of the remembering happening on its own. How does something divided by focus alone recall its own truth of not having actually divided? Even the "happens by itself" is so easily projected by the belief in source as being separate.
We ARE that which happens. We ARE that recollection (the once again collecting). We ARE all that is happening by itself. In our mindfulness we ARE responsible through the choice of our focus, are we not? Or is this beyond choice? Who notices we are out of alignment and how?
We are the living truth– we are the remembering. In our mindfulness we ARE responsible through the choice of our focus, are we not? Or is this beyond choice? Who notices we are out of alignment and how? It feels to me that I have a choice in what I put attention on, at least to some extent. Awareness notices that we are out of alignment. How? I don't know the answer to that.
It feels to me that we have reached a natural conclusion to this interview. I have really enjoyed it. It has really been good for me. Thank you so much for doing it. Do you have anything else to add before we conclude?
It has been an amazing journey, though we have never left. It feels complete to me to. It feels great to be able to communicate about these things. I have nothing else to add. Thank you.